So many things had happened ever since the last time I'd written in my blog...
Well, since I've limited time to write in my blog, as I'm currently busy working + learning driving + following drama series + playing computer games and after the release of my SPM results, I bet I'd then be pretty busy preparing for my college things + attending scholarship interviews + packing my stuffs for hostel (maybe)... Thus, I think I'll write things that are a little more significant first, then only I'll write other stuffs, so... my blog will not be arranged chronologically, haha, this, too, indirectly shows an example of the insystematic personality of mine...
Okay, what I want to talk about, erm, I mean, write about today is about the black side o society after school life...
Almost all my, um, friends(??) in SnJ had left, in search for another job, or just simply to have fun in their hols, I don't know, but anyway, before they left, in fact, just a few days before they said their goodbyes, my nightmare in SnJ had begun...
First, there are commisions for every workers in SnJ, as long as you're working more than 100 hours a month. For a part-timer like me, we get a 0.125% of the whole shop sales if we achieve our targets (Erm... I think i mentioned dat in my last blog, right? Can't remember and lazy 2 check) Anyway, everyone tried their best to get good commision, then some misunderstandings occured between Vivian and me, making her thought I was actually taking her customers away from her, which I certainly DID NOT! I am absolutely SURE about that, because I never did like arguments, neither minor ones or major ones. But unfortunately, the news was immediately spreaded to Yip Yeng, then Sue Sim, who were good friends of theirs, then Amanda, who were more than acquaintance to them, then all of a sudden, in a speed faster then speed of light, or faster than Clark Kent's superhuman speed, I became the bad guy, like villians in superhero movies, I became the Lex Luthor in Superman, Joker in Batman, Green Goblin in Spiderman... The worst part of it is, at least these villians are happy to be bad, but I'm certainly NOT! Because I'm not even bad! I was still kind of shocked and taken aback at their sudden change of attitude towards me, and to Jing Mei too, who happens to be my best friend, and was innocently involved in our little many-to-one war.
Those who are not involved would not know my feelings, but I'm pretty sure those (who're innocent, in this case) whose work has something to do with getting high posts or good commisions or anything to do if these kind of things would understand how I felt, how I truly felt. If they were just showing some ugly and annoying faces to me, it's ok, fine, I'm pretty good in ignoring people and act like nothing happens. But they became more and more ignorant andirritating, and up to some levels, scarily malicious. First, they blatantly "steal" my customers, like, for instance, when I was obviously following a customer, ready to serve him, the whole lot of them deliberately stood in front of me, taking my customers on purpose. Then, they started back-stabbing me, which then turned into front-stabbing me. I remembered clearly how they repeated the word "Bitch" for God knows how many times in front of me, and it was not just one of them, it's the whole lot of them, saying that word again and again, apparently trying to humiliate me, but which I think was more like embarassing themselves. And when I successfully had some customers buy many things from the shop, some of them (well, frankly, I've only seen one of them angry, but it's not really good writing her name here) get really pissed of.
Sigh, my patience was way beyond the limit that time, the hot flame licking me in the pit of my stomach was way beyond ready to swarm up anytime to release my long-awaited anger. But I still remained casual in the shop as I knew, Jing Mei and I knew, they were leaving in just another 3 or 4 days, thus we did not want to cause any more unnecessary squabbles, the current World War 3 was enough to make us stressed like anything in the world. Believe me, my feelings before starting work those few days were exactly like the feeling when tomorrow's the day the results of major exams like PMR etc are released. Terrified would be an appropriate word.
But deep in my heart, I know, many such things will happen in life, that's what make life difficult, isn't it? We can't always make things go on our way, it's just like when God created this world, He can't always make sure everything is peaceful and harmonious, He had not the power to ensure that nobody is in poverty and everyone are happily enjoying lifes. Nope. Not even God had the faculty to make things run smoothly like direct current in circuits. Hence, we should not give up at times of troubles but to do our best to make the best out of everything. Like the saying goes, "Success is not in never falling, but to get up everytime we fall (well, it sounds more or less like this, I can't remember the whole thing)
So, everyone out there who're struggling in lifes, I wish the best of luck to all of you, strive hard for your own futures and live your lifes to the fullest.
But anyway, after working in SnJ, especially after that incident, I understood how scary misunderstandings could be, how powerful it is, that it is able to totally destroy relationships in just a blink of an eye, and I honestly hope that my future career would not be so... complicated, one lesson I learnt in SnJ: Better to make friends than make money... Now that's it's february, I hope to build up a different image in front of them, a positive one of course, they can have their customers and commisions, it's better to work happily rather then get stressed up but enjoy an extra 100 bucks... It's tempting to have commision of course, but if it's gonna cause me sickening trouble, no thanks, I'd rather not want that money...
Yawn, I'm working in morning shift tomorrow, and its 2.45am now, guess I'll need a boost of fresh-brewed Old Town White Coffee tomorrow to start my day with! Tata!
Om Sai Ram!
ReplyDelete"We may not be SAINTLY enough to LOVE our ENEMIES, but for the sake of our Health and Happiness, let us at lease FORGIVE and FORGET them" ~~~~Dale Carnegie
TRUTH -- LIFE is loving what we have to do (many times in life we have to do many things we do not like but no choice -- have to do it) & NOT just liking what we like to do. Always be patience & calm no matter HOW serious the problems are, always chant can help. Aum Sai Ram! ;p ^^)